Friday, May 6, 2011

There are a lot of things that I don't understand and death is one of them.

As I was walking into work this morning I recieved a text from my mom that just said "call'. I knew this was a bad sign and my heart sank. I thought it would be more bad news about my great aunt. I had found out yesterday that they put her on life support and I was going to drive to see her tomorrow in the hospital.

I was relieved to find out that she had actually been showing signs of improvement but my whole heart dropped when she told me that my little brothers close friend, Hance, died in a car wreck last night by a drunk driver.

A year and four months ago I lost my best friend in a car wreck and am still working on moving forward.
  this is an older photo of us


So, I'm just going to talk about what's on my mind right now
There are many reasons why I run, I even made a post about it not too long ago but I'm just now realizing I had forgotten to include one of the most important reasons- I run because it helps me feel "normal" when I am affected by difficult situations out of my control.

There's something about the process of just putting one foot in front of the other and letting your body take over that reminds me that I have to keep moving forward - even when I just want everything to stop. It has helped me to start healing but will never be able to take away the lonliness and pain of losing a friend.

I'm heartbroken to know that families have to feel the pain of losing a brother, son, daughter, or sister.

And for anyone that has lost someone they loved.
My thoughts and prayers go to Hance Henrie's family.


  1. I believe we can get let our mind go and feel at peace when we run. You can think about all the lovely memories of your friend. She was goregeous. May her spirit live on!

  2. It's never easy when you lose someone. I've also found that running, something I can control, helps me cope with life's challenges.

    When another bad thing happens, it opens up those old wounds, even if you have been through the grieving process.

    One thing I have been doing since I lost two good friends is to find ways to celebrate their lives. My small running group has gone on group runs and met after work to toast these lost friends. We have also been running races in their memory too. For instance, I'll be running a Memorial Day race for my friends.

    When I do these races, it's kind of my way of communicating with them. I always feel better after doing the races too, and it's not the endorphins either.

    Take care.